Saturday, October 24, 2020

ERASER (polite)

 Need you

Dream you

Find you

Taste you

Use you

Scar you

Fuck you

Break you



Need dream find taste use scare fuck break


Sunday, October 11, 2020

Wash me, Forgive me, Give me peace

Sinner's Prayer

Jesus, I believe that you are the son of God. That you died for me, to pay for my sins. I believe you're alive today. That you want a relationship with me. Today I surrender my life to you,  make me a new creation, as I live for you, Jesus. In your name, I pray. Amen. 


Bind the spirit of fear. 

Tuesday, October 6, 2020

Next Stop: Normalcy

 I'm starting to feel normal again. Normal? 

Back to my old self. That's what I mean by normal. I have Brian back in my life. I feel like we are starting where we left off. This is what I wanted. So badly. I have cried so many tears for this moment. I'm happy it's happening.....it's just so hard to swallow without any previous talk. I want to hear what he has to say about some things, but at the same time, it REALLY doesn't matter. 


We're here. Now. We're together. Now. TODAY. 

We had a discussion that wsa a bit difficult. He mentioned what I saw in my past 'guys'. Ooof, that was hard. It started because he told me the picture on the side of my fridge of me was nice. It happened to be the picture that Raul took when we went to Mt. Lemmon one morning to catch the sunrise. It must have been winter or something because I had a long sleeve shirt under an old KFMA day shirt I own(ed).....I feel like maybe tossing it. 


Chiracahuas

This past Saturday was Brian's 49th birthday, and so Lisa, Brian, and I took yesterday (Monday) off to go on a hike. We went to the Chiricahuas and hiked 8 miles. It was intense, but it also felt so good to be out there. To be getting some work in. To have my heart rate beating and elevated. What I felt best about was being to be out there and doing it without too much pain. The weight loss is what really helped. 

Friday, October 2, 2020

5 Affirmations to Repeat to Yourself Each Day


Boosting your self-esteem and mental health on a daily basis are important. With all the uncertainty in the world right now, it’s important for you to take the time to acknowledge just how awesome and valuable you are.

Talking to yourself each day isn’t a bad thing as long as you’re using positive words to boost yourself up.

If you’re worried that you’re starting to become a bit negative, luckily, you can take charge and turn that around.

You have the capability to be your own biggest cheerleader. Why not give yourself an immediate morale boost every single day?

Use these simple sayings to turn around the whole outlook of your day:

1. I am important. Everything that you do brings value to someone or something throughout the day. No matter what, remember that you’re on someone’s mind that day and they’re thankful for you.

  • If you don’t believe that you’re important, it’s too easy to feel like just giving up. Don’t let that happen because, once it does, it’s a hill to climb back up. You are important and you matter.

2. My thoughts and feelings matter. We don’t have to get along and agree with every single person that we cross paths with. In fact, it’s okay to be and feel differently than everyone else.

  • If you have a good thought, say it. Or if you have a good idea for the workplace, put it out there. Avoid selling yourself and your abilities short.

3. I love myself. Always remember to love yourself and put yourself first. Avoid letting self-doubt creep in.

  • Showering yourself with love is important. The moment that you stop, you’ll notice that your mood shifts into a more negative outlook. You can prevent that from happening by telling yourself that you love yourself first thing every single morning and throughout the day, too.

4. I can do this. You have the ability to do whatever you want in life as long as you believe that you can. Don’t let anyone or troubling circumstances tell you differently. As long as you persevere, you’ll reach your goal.

5. Today is a brand-new day. Isn’t it amazing how each day allows you to start over with a blank canvas? Whatever happened yesterday or last week no longer applies.

  • Once you hop out of bed, focus on the present day. When you’re thinking only about what you’re doing right now, the past and the future fade away, along with your regrets and worries.
  • Remember – what you do today frames your future. This is why today is so important. Even if you’re dealing with some negative effects of errors you may have made in the past, what you do today can alter your life for the better.
  • It’s a brand-new day! So, go for it with all the gusto you’ve got!

Now is your time to shine. You hold the key to building yourself up to be a model of confidence.

Everyone can learn to appreciate and build their self-confidence. The moment that you actually start to believe in yourself is the moment that you’ll start walking down an exciting new path in life.

Take the time to build yourself up daily by repeating these simple sayings. They really can help change the course of your life.


https://personaldevelopmentmaster.com/5-affirmations-to-repeat-to-yourself-each-day/