TRIPS AND CRAP

Things to remember/things to write about in detail

Going to Bisbee with Andrew

Vegas Trip Planned

San Diego trip planned

Vino wine festival

valentine's day at the Ritz-Carlton



Brian's texts every now and so often and what I'm supposed to get from them and learn from them and what the heck his expectations are.


Brian's texting me right now. It's so tempting to just have him come over and talk, but I know what that means sometimes and I'm not ready for it. I'm dating someone. I just wish I knew what to do.

Brian came over last night. I drank two bottles of wine and I think our texts just lead to him coming over. He helped me out of the bathtub last night. I wish I remembered how that all happened. I really despise him most times. He says things that make me crazy and put me in my head. I blocked him finally. I'm so proud of myself. I can't believe it. Finally. He's out of my head. I got him out of my system.

I bought two Blu ray movies lately and from a gas station, no less. I bought Side effects and the internship.

I don't remember what happened the night that Brian came over. He came over and I think I was in the tub and I had thrown up all the pumpkin popcorn

How do I cheer up again and become myself? I feel like I'm super depressed again and it's always after I see or talk to Brian.

Do I believe in ghosts, spirits, presences, or people communicating beyond this life? I wonder.

We leave for San Diego tomorrow! I'm SO excited. I want to vacation with Andrew anywhere! He's awesome. I like his company and he is very similar to me. I like his company. I like his demeanor. I like his personality, I like his respectful nature, I like him overall.

I can't wait to feel the San Diego weather on my face. The cool wind and the humidity from the water nearby. I don't personally like the muggy feeling, but it's worth it when you have the other stuff like the air and the scenery, etc.

We leave for SD today! I'm waiting until about 10 to go to the dentist and get my night guard. Then I'm going next door to get my haircut and then possibly even going to get my eyebrows threaded.


I want to listen to some of my tunes on the way up there. Let's see if he's willing to let me.